What is seven years?

How strong can you build a friendship in that time? How much time is that to love, trust, and support one another? How many good things and bad things will come to pass?

How much will it hurt when they betray you?

I'm still pondering that. I'm sick of crying over it.

I want her to understand that I am not who she thinks I am. I am someone better, stronger. I have morals and I stick to them. I am certainly not one of *those* people.

All this time I felt I was doing the right thing. Not saying I was confident. I just felt like all the choices I made were the right ones.

Now...I'm not so sure.

If it weren't for Kadmon, Smoke, and Ele, I probably would have given up and went back to DC. But here I am, sticking it out, and I've forgotten why I came here in the first place.

Was it freedom? I am still tied to the past, like some pathetic prisoner. I try to avoid it but it always returns.

Sometimes I have dreams so vivid that I wake up and I'm not sure if I'm still dreaming or not. I look out at the mountains outside my window and wonder: Where am I? Why am I here?

Maybe I'm looking too deeply into this. I just need some assurance of self-worth.

I hope I'll have updates soon. I'm unable to locate a lot of artwork. It'll turn up, I'm sure. It's just somewhere. Here, but somewhere.

And I've been so busy between two jobs that I haven't really been motivated to draw. Feel free to kick me into shape.

More next week.

Trying to wake up,

Fanny

For real this time! I finally had internet set up at home yesterday. I'm really happy for that. I don't know how I lived that long offline! D=

I wish I could say I had all the time in the world and finished all my comissions, but I'm working two jobs, so sadly, that is not the case. I'm still completely disorganized, but I promise I'll get my act together when I move into my apartment next month and can actually unpack things.

I'm currently working on going through 832 deviations and 373 messages...

I'm off to work soon, so more later!

Fanny

I got a job! It's a temp, but I love it. I work for Giant Eagle in Human Resources. It really is a great job and I hope I get hired on as a permanent employee.

I've been doing a lot of drawing but not a lot of coloring...because I'm working on 's Lords of Valor coloring contest.

I wish I could give you more updates but they'll just have to wait until I have internet again. It'll be about a month until then, though, so until then you have my best wishes...

And an Armor Assassin completed piece!

Fanny

...But Nara is. Dead@17 rocks!

Anyway, I'm currently living in PA by myself. No job yet so things are getting REALLY hard. And I lack internet. I've been trying to find my sketches (packed away somewhere, ugh) so I can at least work on comissions. By time you hear from me again at least half of them will be done. I outlined 6 more Heris and Wherls, so I'm using my spare time wisely! Most of my time has been spent job hunting though, and I suspect the progress to slow again once I have a job.

I still check my e-mail once a week, either at a friend's house or at the library, so feel free to contact me.

Also, I'm being forced to reopen comissions, so for now I have 6 slots available. If you'd like to help out but don't want or need art, you may donate via PayPal at pojfanny@gmail.com

Not much more by way of updates, but I have over 1000 deviations to check! @_@

Good luck all!

Fanny

Okay so my friend's mom came out of nowhere and threw me out, so I'm staying with two good friends up in Pittsburgh. I was headed in that direction anyway, so...

No luck on the job hunt so far, still pretty much just applying everywhere I can. I'm disregarding location at this point - if the commute is under an hour, it's tolerable.

I'm here for a while now. Friends are moving out but I'm staying in their house until my apartment is ready. Most of my art and stuff is back in Virginia for now but I did bring one sketchbook. I won't have internet after around the 14th so I'll have a good 2-3 weeks of no distractions other than possibly job-related stuff.

As always, you can contact via e-mail at pojfanny@gmail.com for questions and/or concerns. I'll try to be online at least once a day to check my e-mail and job postings.

Have a great weekend!

Fanny